I too have a dream

I have a dream, that we are a superpower
I have a dream, that we are a corruption free state
I have a dream, that we are a self-sufficient state
I have a dream, that we are a completely literate
I have a dream, that we preserve our natural resources

I have a dream, that our education system is world class
I have a dream, that our healthcare is next to none
I have a dream, that our politicians are scholars
I have a dream, that our athletes finish top in Olympics
I have a dream, that our football team qualified for World Cup

I have a dream, that people are rational
I have a dream, that people respect rules
I have a dream, that people respect lives
I have a dream, that people are not crazy of the west
I have a dream, that people believe in being Indian

I have a dream, that I'm an Economist
I have a dream, that I'm not an angry man
I have a dream, that I'm devoid of disorders
I have a dream, that I'm never wrong
I have a dream, that I'm ..........

I too have a dream.

An account of last two years

Two long years and now when I look back, it has been as eventful as it could be. I have changed in shape. I have changed as a person. My environment has changed. And looking at my previous blogs, I realise that it will continue to change in the future. Alas, wise-men said change in inevitable. 

What has not changed

My life would be merrier if there is a day when I could write that I have controlled my anger. It continues to be my self-destructive weapon. Nothing has changed in this part of me. I need to put concentrated efforts to change. I have hurt parents, near parents, friends, sisters, colleagues and might be people I never know. The reason more, why I feel I should control my anger, is the fact that most people have hung around me even after the hurt I have caused. That is unfathomable. And for those who bid farewell to me, well it has been a lesson well learnt for both of us. I respect your/my decision.

What has changed

I have developed a sense of pride of being myself including my physical self. While I had this for the intellectual part of me, I have further aggravated it to a level of booming self confidence. I know my strengths better. I understand my weaknesses better. Big thanks to my closest and best friend today. It is hardly two years and I can proudly say that she is one of the important individual in my life. Right person at the Right time as a friend is indeed a God's gift. The benefits of the friendship are intangible and I have been a selfish person in just accepting it. On the one hand she made sure I gained the self-confidence, on the other hand she was instrumental in helping me understand that it is important to get over your past, get rid of the excess baggage. My vocabulary is so bad, I could not find a sentence in English to put forth her words, "tharatharam theriyama pazhagaadha". Might sound racist, but appreciate the true meaning of it. Minus her, I would not be as happy as I'm here today.

Professionally I have reached a place where I could not have imagined to be, two years back. After venturing at practice, now I have taken up employment. I would say I have comfortably warmed up over the last one year, for a smooth take off. I would rather concede that I'm more than happy here.

At home, I have lost my father. He is an important person in my life. He was physically handicapped for over 15 years and it was painful to see a person who loves roaming around, being tied down at home. Finally he was relieved of his duties on earth, though I would have loved to have him see me grow. Peace at home now makes up for the grief of loss of him. Mom, chithi, paati and pet are always there for me in spite of my anger. I have hurt them badly. At home is where I would like immediate control of my anger. I'm happy at home but not these souls who take of me. 

The present

The present is happening for me. I have just completed the book I wanted to complete for over two years now. It will be out in the markets. I'm liking myself being a teacher. Though I would feel the commitment levels of mine is not up to what I have seen in remarkable teachers. I'm coming there. I'm enjoying my job. I'm having good set of people around me. I'm having the best friend of my life. I'm happier than ever. 

P.S. This is bit like writing down a diary.