I’m just about beginning to write this blog without any title. So the subject is not decided. Will try to have an appropriate title at the end when it is published.
How does it feel when you are neglected? It is an instant and everlasting pain I would say. It is like having a wound right on upper part of your wrist that you can neither ignore seeing it nor you can ignore the fact of having got the wound. The pain is so immersed that you never know there is pain at all. The devastation is so much that you possibly take weirdest of decisions that you can ever think of, with your own sweet will and conscience. The pleasure is that you are neglected by the one you love. Insanely this pleasure would continue to override all those pains.
Can you ever replace a person in life? My answer will, was and is always no. There are no humans alike. If you had come across a person in life, there can ever be one who could fit in as a perfect replacement. This is not a job market where you find people who would suit a particular role. Life is more personalized. There are no roles in it. It is human beings and their relations in it. It sans logic to think of replacement in human relationship. But still, there are always contrary views that exist and will continue to exist.
The level of irritation is so high that you begin hating yourself and the environment for the reason that you do not want to hate the person. Particularly, when there are obvious new companies that have erupted to the person who has been close with you. There are questions that arise, “had this not happened or had that not happened?”, but the eventual truth is that all that has happened can never be taken back.
Again, when the person walks back into your life, will everything be fine and flashy as it used to be? Never and its never going to be. There are certain journeys that cannot be travelled back in time. The original personalty can never be placed.
Whatever be it, one is better off when not attached to emotions and there will be hardly any in this category. In fact there will be no one in this category. There may be persons, just like me who can hide emotions, but it is perilous than being emotional. You are caught on a trap which no one else could ever attempt to help. You are on a voyage that does not have any direction and you are not being yourself. But, as destiny would go, I will continue to be myself, get even more hardened, never respect or care about any single individual’s emotions.
And the title is “Foolishly confusing ME”
